Time is very, very slowly easing the pain. But I still miss her, think of her throughout the day and pick up the phone to call her from work at least once a week.
But, how lucky am I that she sent me one more kiss?
About two months ago, when I was cleaning out her bathroom cabinets, there was a crumpled-up tissue way in the back corner. I pulled it out to throw it away and it opened, revealing her lipstick mark -- her kiss.
A few weeks later, when I came upon that notebook filled with leaves I brought home from our trip to Southern Illinois in 2007, (mentioned in http://alwaysonmymindforeverinmyheart.blogspot.com/2014_08_24_archive.html ), laying right on top of all the leaves I dumped out of the notebook was the tiniest little four-leaf clover. Mother had found it during that trip at Horseshoe Lake State Park in Granite City, Illinois. We had been driving around and sightseeing all day, when suddenly she asked me to take her there, saying it was one of her favorite places to be when she was young. She picked up some dandelions and told me how her mother used them in salads, and then she picked up this tiny four-leaf clover.
Everything happening in my life right at this moment is a culmination of things begun two years ago. Mother would be so happy and proud.
How lucky am I to be loved so much!
I love you, I miss you and I want you to come home, now.
